The 'M' word

Weddings on the brain!!!
Recently I can admit to spending a lot of time looking at wedding stuff...its actually quite fun. before I use to do this as, I don't know, one of those things that I think girls do when they bored or having one of there 'moments' but this time its different. Its different because there's a bit more purpose in it mostly because there is more of a possibility of this 'looking' being useful now than it was back then. It's different because it's more of a research project rather than wishful thinking. Its's different because I might actually be getting married...I say might not because there's anything wrong with my relationship like I feel like it will all of a sudden break down, but I say might because I ain't God...I can't see the end from the beginning...I can't see my future I can only work on what I know of my present and hope and pray for the future.

Is it odd?
I was wondering if all this should feel strange to me...I think it wants to but it doesn't. Why is that? Is it confidence or crazy? Either way this is the closest to 'marriage' I've ever been so I guess I'll run with this lol...It's early days yet. I'm not even a fiancée but somehow I feel like there is no harm in having a look, or is there?

How it all began...sorta!
It's funny because this all started almost like a joke. Well wanting to get married to Sid isn't the joke bit. I think we established that pretty early on in the relationship like for real, why give up on a good thing right? But the joke was in the date. I cant even remember how the conversation came up and how we both started looking at wedding stuff but I went to do some research and so joined one of those wedding site thingys and it asked for a date so I made one up and told Sid and he kinda agreed...and I guess it started from there really lol! Oh the fun we two have lol!!

But yeh that date was like 3 years away, cant remember it now because believe it or not the date has changed...its moved forward (hmmm having a date but not engaged...sounds very odd when you blog about it lol) but even that is not confirmed yet because basically boo has to run this idea by my potential mother-in-law but the M word (marriage) is not to be mentioned until we've been together for at least a year (which I understand, agree and respect) so even with all that in mind the date really isn't fix. But I do like the new date.

It's beautiful really
Our relationship has really grown and developed. I don't think people would believe we haven't been together for even a year yet but sometimes you just know that you want to be with someone and you don't see why it wouldn't work and when you have the right formula of prayer, personal study, always looking to God for direction and looking out for the other persons well being especially spiritually...really there is no reason the relationship should break down unless the formula is not being applied properly so this is why Sid and I have confidence in our relationship. To some this idea is far-fetched but really it's quite simple and well I ain't complaining but by golly it does take work.

But anyway, I quite like the wedding stuff and even better that its not like a secret undercover hobby that you'd be embarrassed if someone caught you looking at it...quick minimise lol... but instead boo's doing his own research too...shoot the idea to have a folder dedicated to wedding stuff I got from him...never thought that day would come when a guy is just as interested in wedding stuff as the girl...well there you have it.

Well only time will tell...I'm not in a hurry...I like what we have....but realising each day how much I'd love to be married to him too :)